Thankful Friday 25 October 2019

I got in at 2 AM from the Juggalo Prom, washed up, and went to bed at 3 AM. I was up at 8 AM and even though I took off from the library today and rested, I’m still feeling pooped. I will post about the Juggalo Prom at some point this week.

However, I have to give some gratitude for yesterday. My full-time job had the pumpkin contest yesterday and one of the departments did a Suicide Squad theme. I loved the guy who dressed as the Joker and afterwards, I asked him if he had extra paint because I wanted to borrow some for the Juggalo Prom. Wouldn’t you know that he gave me the pink UV paint for my mouth? I was uber grateful and my face paint looked great. Here’s a selfie with him, before I did my face.


I can’t eat at Hungry Pigeon anymore. While I’ve had diarrhea after eating there in the past, I never got violently sick. Last night I was glutened and I vomited. First time vomiting with accidental gluten contamination. I puked in the Lyft going to the Juggalo Prom (and thank god the Lyft driver didn’t charge me extra, some do) and he helped me clean up a little. I had to clean my dress when I got to the Voltage Lounge and I puked again, over the toilet that time.

Anyway, I managed to clean myself, but I was feeling self-conscious that I smelled like puke. I met a nice young lady last night, I told her the embarrassing story (I told a few others too… when I’m anxious and self-conscious, I tend to talk a lot about the embarrassment) and I asked her if I smelled.

She told me, “no! You smell fine and even if you did smell a little bit, shit happens. I once puked at a dance on myself and my date’s shoes. It happens. However, here’s some perfume!” She sprayed me and we ended up laughing about it all and I said, “you’re right, shit does happen. I feel better!” We also ended up hanging out for a bit and enjoyed the prom. I was thankful for Lily.

Here are some teaser photos. Before the prom, I wanted to get a few pre-prom pictures. I never went to my high school proms, didn’t have an interest, but I remember seeing everyone’s pre-prom photos. I wanted mine and people were happy to take them. Everyone I passed in Philadelphia also loved my make up! I got a lot of compliments, which made me glow. 🙂


I felt pretty grateful and joyful yesterday. I can’t wait to post about the Juggalo Prom!

Thankful Thursday 24 October 2019

One more week until Halloween and tomorrow night is the Juggalo Prom! After being notified last Thursday night that Hot Topic canceled my dress order, I went dress shopping on Saturday.

After work at the library, I went to Torrid and I asked a sales clerk where the skater dresses were. This one caught my eye, but it was a 12 and I normally wear a 16. Lo and behold, it fit perfectly! The sales associate helped zip me up and as she did, other associates walked back, ohhed and ahhed and said I looked gorgeous, that this will be perfect for the Juggalo Prom. I felt pretty on Saturday and this made me feel over the moon. Thank you, Torrid. I know I’ll look pretty tomorrow night and I am still over the moon.






I also ride the train with some kind people. I was chatting with my one friend today and the friend is still keeping their eye on me in regards to a certain situation. Today we chatted about libraries and book collections, other days this week we chatted photography. They were nice conversations and I am grateful for them. I’m grateful for the awesome people I’ve met on SEPTA over the past 12 years. I love public transit and it’s usually the people that make the trips. I tend to meet nice people, even if some weird ones get mixed in from time to time. I am thankful for these experiences.

I’m also thankful for my parents. It’s been dad and I this week since mom is on a business trip; we’ve spent the past few nights bonding. I made dinner last night; chicken with ghost mashed potatoes and monster peas and dad loved it. Tonight we had Halal Guys and he took me to Michael’s to get the scrapbook page protectors. By next week I should be done with Happiness Box 2018 scrapbook; I’ll get a two month breather before opening 2019’s and I start scrapping that. Anyway, I am lucky to have my mom and dad.


I listened to uplifting music today; I am thankful that these songs soothed the soul. I want to share them with you:

Some camp friends formed a band and I loved this cover they did by the Tallest Man On Earth.


In February 2013, Christina won tickets to see Aaron Carter. I was her plus 1 and I loved the opening band, Petrel. I thought Bombshell was fitting for today.


I love Gretchen Wilson, so I listened to a whole bunch today. Here are two of my favourites:



What are you thankful for today?

Halloween Recipe: Bloody Garlic and Parmesan Lungs

Every October, I try to make something Halloween inspired for dinner. Since my parents were spending their anniversary in Rehobeth Beach, I made Bloody Garlic and Parmesan Lungs with beetle sacks (dyed chicken breast, then GF black lentil pasta in a GF alfredo sauce). It was an interesting recipe and I want to share it with you.



  1. 2 chicken breasts, butterflied
  2. 1 lots of red food die
  3. 2 tbsp minced garlic(I use the jarred kind)
  4. 6 drops black food die
  5. 2 tbsp olive oil
  6. 1 parmesian cheese from a shaker..




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  1. in a skillet add oil and garlic. heat till hot.. place chicken breast in pan and squeeze red food color all over chicken on that side. until its nice and bloody all over.. flip and repeat. Let simmer on each side for 10 min.

  2. Place 3 drops of black food color on each chicken breast. in random spots. flip and do the same to other side. this will end up almost looking like smokers lungs.

  3. Sprinkle both sides of chicken with Parmesan cheese. The garlic and cheese will dye as well.

  4. Cover and cook for about 10 more minutes each side. Covered with a lid.

  5. Meanwhile.. for the beetles n puss sauce..

  6. Place Alfredo sauce and mushrooms into a pan and heat through.

  7. Gently stir in black macaroni noodles.

  8. Transfer to serving bowl and sprinkle with shredded Parmesan. Serve alongside your lungs!

Walkin’ in an Autumn Wonderland!

Yesterday after work, I decided to hike from Miquon to Manayunk on the Schuylkill River Trail. It had been two months since I last did this, and to my delight, the leaves were changing! I love walking in an autumn wonderland, even if the sun is very strong this time of year!

Then when I arrived to the art museum, I was stunned. October is my favourite colour and it makes me look so beautiful!

I can’t wait to see what next week brings!

Flashback Friday: Twiztid’s “This Way To Hell Tour” 18 October 2014

This morning, I was chatting with one of my co-workers at my full-time job and I excitedly said, “five years ago today, I met Twiztid for the first time! I made Jamie and Mono trick-or-treat bags and gave them the bags with Halloween cards. They were so surprised and happy. I think that is one of the reasons why they remembered me at Warped Tour in 2018. That was one of the best days of my life!” She smiled and said, “of course, you are such a sweet young lady, it would be hard to forget your kind gestures! It sounds like it meant a lot to them too.”

Sooo… five years ago today, I saw Twiztid for the first time and also met them. They performed at the TLA and the night was fantastic. Let me copy from an old blog about the night (I will also share photos and videos):

Monday, October 20, 2014

Meeting Paul and Jamie (Monoxide and Madrox)

So, I’ve decided to split this in half. This entry will be about the meet and greet. Because I can get picture heavy (and video heavy), I decided your computers will be happier with this way. Either later or tomorrow I will post about the actual show. 🙂 Enjoy!


The moment was finally here! As I was waiting on the black steel step leading up to an upper level of the TLA, my heart was fluttering about the fact I was going to meet the group I’ve loved since 2003 and have wanted to see since then. I also couldn’t get over the fact that I was going to be talking to Monoxide. “I hope they like their cards and treat bags,” I think to myself. I’m nervous about it, but it was a fun gesture. The security guard then motioned me to step forward and I felt in awe as I walked into the room and there was Madrox and Monoxide standing at the table.

I was closer to Madrox, so I handed him has card first with the treat bag, then Monoxide his. I said, “Hey, Happy Halloween!” Both of them were so happy when they got their cards and treat bags, they both said “Oh my God, thank you!” Madrox gave me a huge hug first, then Monoxide (I was squeeing on the inside). I put my things up on the table for them to sign, and grabbed the permanent marker and they both said, “it’s okay, we came prepared!” They both started talking to me because I was a bit nervous and they asked, “Your name is spelled the traditional way, right?” I laughed and said, “Yeah, my parents were traditionalists.” Both laughed and said, “Good, that makes it easier for us.” We then started talking about the city.

Madrox asked me what my favorite cheesesteak place was around Philadelphia and I said, “Well, I don’t really eat them much in the city. My mom makes the best steak sandwiches and I prefer those. I like helping her.” Madrox replied, “You need to make us some and send them!” Monoxide added about the other things I post and would like those too. Monoxide thanked me for coming and I said, “I wouldn’t miss this! This is my first Twiztid show!” He smiled and said, “Awesome. Enjoy!” Then the group picture. Both of them gave me a huge second hug, then they complimented my awesome camera,

It lasted about 15 minutes probably, but they were so sweet, genuine and down to Earth. You could tell they genuinely care about their fans and they do read my Twitter feed (and I guess they get a kick out of the things I post). Knowing that made me really happy. Actually, the whole meet and greet made me really happy. My nervousness faded away and it was like I was talking to old friends – very laid back. They truly are my heroes and they’re just amazing individuals. I’m still on cloud 9 right now… I’m just really happy about my experience. I was musing to myself last night, “My 14-17 year old self would be so jealous of me right now.” (I had a huge crush on Madrox from when I was 14-17… then 23 and onward on Monoxide.)

I would definitely recommend the meet and greet. You’re given a bag of things, but the experience of meeting them is awesome. I can honestly say that this was one of the best moments of my life and it was definitely one of the best times this year. I’m still happy and smiling. I’m actually still in fan girl mode. I was totally squeeing like a fan girl on the inside. Ah man… starstruck.

What they signed for me. 🙂 VIP pass isn’t signed, but the ticket is (not pictured). I have to get a shadow box for these.

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Twiztid’s This Way to Hell Tour 2014

I left Aunt Kathy’s house around 2 pm and dad dropped me off to the Dekalb Station to take the P & W (err, Norristown High Speed Line) to 69th Street then catch the el into Philadelphia. I was dressed in my old pair of ripped jeans (I’m going to have to get a belt for them… they’re stretchy and by the end of the night, I had to hold them up) with purple/black striped stockings and my black Twiztid shirt. I had my hippie purse around me and my camera bag in hand. I was ready to get pictures of the show and for whomever to take pictures of me with Madrox and Monoxide. Dad said, “I’m glad you’re excited. It’s cool you’re meeting them.” When we pulled into the Dekalb Station parking lot, dad said, “Have a great time, but be careful. I’ll be up until 11.” I said, “I’ll be home around 1:30. Friends have said their shows usually end at Midnight.” “Okay, have fun!” I headed down to wait for the P & W, it came five minutes later and I blasted Twiztid on my iPod all the way until the city. I was pumped, excited and a bit nervous about meeting my heroes and my crush: Monoxide.


I arrived to the TLA at 4 pm. I still had an hour until the VIPs were supposed to meet to get the goody bag and get the instructions of where to meet. I wasn’t the only one waiting, four other people were waiting and we all introduced ourselves. They were cool to talk to. Gradually more people came and it was so neat seeing cars drive by for the concert blasting music. One car had Twiztid stickers all over their back window. We all thought that was cool, but we wondered about the legality of it since we always thought seeing out the back window had to be visible and couldn’t have too many stickers. We shrugged it off and continued talking about Twiztid, Faygo, where we were from, etc. Gradually more people were coming and then we were told to wait on the side. While we waited on the side, I started talking to more people. One group was a couple from Allentown (Pennsylvania) and we just started talking about concerts and music. We introduced ourselves: Dan and Laura were their names. Justin, one of the guys I met when I first got to the TLA, loved Dan’s speakers since he was playing Abominationz through his iPod. Justin is a DJ and wanted to see how his music sounded on the mini 808 speakers. Then the Twiztid Shop guys came out and said things had been moved back until 6. Laura and Dan said, “Alright, I guess we can catch a quick drink. Let’s all go!” So a bunch of us went to that bar across the street from Jim Steak’s.

We ordered our drinks and just sat at the table and talked. Laura was talking about a concert she went to previously and that’s when I asked where they were from. They said, “Allentown” and I said, “Oh, neat! I went to a few concerts there.” “Really? The venues are usually lame.” I replied, “Yeah, I didn’t like the Crocodile Rock. I went to see Mindless Self Indulgence in 2008 and apparently at the time they wanted you in the mosh pit. I had a panic attack because it was getting out of hand and I’m small. The owners actually yelled at me about getting out of the pit,but I did and watched the show from the side. Still a good show.” She replied, “I was at that show! And the same thing happened to me, and I waited on the side. It was a good show.” Small world. We then talked about our excitement and nervousness about meeting Twiztid. We were just imagining what it’ll be like to finally meet them. They have been fans for a long time as well and I believe it was their first time seeing them too or at least first time meeting them (actually, when I first got there, I said it was my first time seeing them and meeting them and someone said, “Wow! You’re going all out for your first time!”). I looked at my watch, told them it was almost 6 and we finished our drinks.

When we got back, the Twiztid shop guys were there and handed us our bags and VIP passes. We were told we’ll be let in to line up to meet them at 6:30. Laura, Dan and I split up and I hung out with Justin for a bit. I also met Rich and his sister, Bre. I met George when I first arrived, but we all started talking more about the time was nearing to meet the performers we all loved for 10+ years. It was awesome to see that there were other long time fans there and others who could relate to them as well. George held up his cell phone to get a picture of everyone waiting. I asked him if he could take one with my phone so I could post (after all, I’m short and he was tall…):

George, Me, Bre, Rich and Justin is behind George.
This guy was cool and I loved his makeup. He had it done professionally and it took a few hours.

I’m still shaking even though it’s been a half an hour since the last hug from Jamie and Monoxide took place. I was still fan girling and thinking, “OMG! This just happened! I just met the people I loved since I was a teenager and someone I have a huge crush on! They were awesome!” when the time Rich and I walked from the merch booth to where Bre was saving a spot for us all: front row. The TLA is standing room only, but there was still room to sit so we all sat and waited until the show started. Bre and I gushed about meeting Monoxide and how cool it was. We both were squeeing. I also showed off pictures of the birthday cake I made (remember that one? The one with Monoxide from Mostasteless and he loved, then wished me a happy birthday?), which everyone loved.

The show finally started at 9 pm with Whitney Peyton opening (hmm… I did talk to her… she’s from the Philadelphia area and someone I had a class with in college knows her personally and has worked with her since she’s a musician… that was an awesome experience too. She’s probably about my age and she was down to Earth. I bought a shirt and she signed it. I’ll have to download more of her songs from Amazon or iTunes) with “Wasted Pt. 2” which she collaborated with Twiztid (and a bunch of others) on the Get Twiztid album. That was really cool.

Her whole opening act was really cool. I loved the special effects for “Pinwheels” and she ended it with a burst of confetti (which there are still a few strands hanging out in my Twiztid bag… save them for a scrapbook) and then body surfed in an inflated donut flotation device. I really liked her style and I would see her again. She was good.

The next band was a heavy metal band, which reminded me of Poison the Well. They were called Neurotic November. It didn’t surprise me they were playing because Jamie is a fan of metal music and that’s why Twiztid sometimes can have a rock sound… they were on Rock Tunes for a long while in the early to mid 2000s. Which, yes… Twiztid and the cartoon I’ve had printed out since 2004 is still there! Twiztid Cartoon. They weren’t a bad band, but I think I’d like to check out their CD and form a judgement. They had a lot of energy and I loved their playing… but the lead singer was meh. I think they accomplished what they were hired for as seen here:

Kung Fu Vampire was the last act before Twiztid. They were a combination between rock with the instruments and rap, since the rapper rapped. I thought they were interesting and I liked their style too. I really liked their energy and he was a great choice before Twiztid playing. The guitarist was awesome as well. Oh, there was also a controlled mosh pit; Kung Fu Vampire had us part to the sides for those who wanted to mosh could mosh for a song. It was a controlled pit, but I stayed on the side. Kung Fu Vampire thanked people for helping people up who fell and considerate of others around them. 🙂

The mosh pit. Rich had to take that picture… being small and all…

Ah, Twiztid! Twiztid came on around 10:45 and played until midnight. Oh man, their performance was AMAZING! When they came out on stage, since I was in the front row, Madrox and Monoxide dowsed me with their water bottles. It was freezing cold water too! It sort of reminded me of the polar plunges I did and it made me even more alert. More people began to mosh and a lot of them were put on the side since no moshing was allowed. I also became between first and second room because some people moved up to get pictures of their idols. I didn’t mind and I’m glad most of my pictures turned out well.

Here I am… all soaked. At least it was water, haha.
I really love this one. 🙂

Their set list was AWESOME. They played a lot of songs from Mostasteless such as Rock The Dead and Blink, which those are my favorite two. They played “We Don’t Die,” which was the Twiztid song that got me into them back in 2003. They played “Afraid of Me,” “Down With Us,” “Lift Me Up,” “Whatthefuck,” “Bagz,” “Breakdown,” and a bunch of others. I was singing, errr, rapping along with them and jumping up and down. No wonder why I was hoarse at the end of the show and I was all smiles. I waved to Monoxide a few times and gave him a big smile. 😀

They ended with “LDLHA-IBCSYWA,” which is my absolute favorite song by them. This song is on Abominationz and it’s always something I listen to. If I ever play the piano again, I’d play this. I sang along with it and you can definitely hear it in the video. When the song ended, the lights dimmed and we all screamed, “FAMILY! FAMILY! FAMILY!” Madrox and Monoxide came back out and did a mini comedy routine. Madrox started saying, “Monoxide, I want to give you a big hug” and Monoxide started running from him – it was a game of cat and mouse on stage. Monoxide gave a big smile, but sadly that picture didn’t come out.. however, I did capture another Monoxide smile moment (I love his smile! His smile makes my heart melt). Then they thanked everyone who performed. Jamie said, “after me let’s give everyone a “whoop motherfuckin’ whoop whoop!” We had to do it a few times, I gave a really loud “whoop motherfuckin’ whoop whoop” to Monoxide. Monoxide just said, “I’m not as creative as Jamie, so let’s all give Jamie a simple “whoop whoop.”

Monoxide smile… this makes me melt. I love his smile.

It was just so much fun, so much fun. I can’t wait to see them again because it was just a really powerful show with so much energy. That was one of the best weekends this year and this totally made my year. Check out my photo album: Twiztid Meet & Greet, This Way To Hell Tour 2014.

Oh, I was on Wesley’s profile and Twiztid posted this! Sadly you can’t see me because Monoxide is covering me… but that goes to show I had front row view of that awesome, handsome man… so it’s okay! 😀

Thankful Thursday 17 October 2019

Thursday already!? Where has this week gone? Two weeks until Halloween and we’re halfway through the month. 2019, slow down a little bit!

After my last session with Mitch, I promised myself that I would be honest with my feelings. Although they may seem silly to outside eyes, I am not going to deny my feelings. This will be the last entry about Savage.

On Monday, I chatted with two middle aged guys that I’ve talked to for the past few years and I told them everything that happened. Both of them said, “we could see that he was trying to use you and we were always watching out for you. We will continue to watch out for you.” I was telling the one that Savage’s hugs were amazing, he chuckled and said, “of course they were. He was trying to hook you.” I am grateful that the regulars I ride the train with were watching, they are listening, and continue to look out for me. They don’t have to, but they do, and it shows that people do care about me and that there are still good, honest people in this world. I feel verklempt.

I will admit, I felt a bit of cognitive dissonance about Savage and that is why I went back twice, because I felt guilty. I laughed about him with others behind his back; usually, I don’t do that, but the whole thing was oddly funny. Savage wasn’t a bad looking guy; he would have looked better without the face tattoos and I think that will be his downfall. Who would bring someone home with “Savage” and a gang symbol on their face? However, as I told him once, “I don’t really go by looks. I go by personality and how they treat others. If you are a crappy person, nope.” I’m asexual and I prefer not to jump into relationship with males, but in my mind, personality and inner character lasts where outer looks do not. I tried to give him the benefit of the doubt, I wanted him to be a kind guy, but my insides were telling me not to throw the blinders on like I did in my 20s. I listened.

Ironically, while my words from my mouth and fingers were telling him hugs and lifting me when he hugged me would be okay, my body said it otherwise. I let him hug me, but when he tried to lift me, my feet stayed planted on the ground. They refused to be lifted; I’m thankful that my body and my inner voice protected me. And while he was a very aggressive male, I am glad he backed off. I’m very thankful that it wasn’t worse and that I am very much safe. I could feel Brandon within him, but I am glad he did not pull a Brandon. Then again, I wouldn’t go anywhere with him. As I said to my friend, “Honestly, I wasn’t going to tell him anything about what happened to me, I didn’t trust him. He had Savage and a teardrop on his face, that is a walking billboard for danger. I didn’t want to give him ideas, though he probably had his own ideas.” I guess that’s the answer right there: I wanted to be nice, I thought I wanted to be proved wrong, but deep down I knew the answer.

I don’t know if he blocked my number, but I sent him this text this afternoon before I blocked him again. I wanted to put closure to this and honestly, I never want to see him again. Maybe that’s the coward in me, but I wanted to text it. He may never see it, if he did block me, but who knows. He hasn’t been on the train all week, so maybe I will never see him again (and I pray that is the case).


And like that, it’s over. I yelled “plot twist” and I am moving on!

(This is what I’m referring to:)


In happier news, I am grateful for my friends and for them listening this week. I am thankful that it induced laughter because I think the laughter helped ease the triggers a bit. Laughter is the best medicine, after all!

I am thankful for my co-workers, especially the library. Mrs. Davenport grabbed a gluten-free (and pork free) sandwich for me this afternoon when she saw them at a meeting. This will be my lunch tomorrow. I’m thankful that she remembered my dietary needs.


I am also thankful for Terry; I am catsitting for her this weekend and she grabbed dairy and gluten-free foods for me to enjoy. I am thankful for her friendship too.

Of course, I am also thankful for my parents and all that they do for me.

The leaves are changing, though I hope they change more before the wind blows them off the trees. Although it was windy today, I still took a walk and managed to take photos with my cellphone. Tomorrow, when I hike to Manayunk, I’ll take photos with my DSLR. I’m thankful for autumn and I’m thankful that I live in a region that experiences seasons.

Finally, I love seeing the Halloween decorations on my walk home from the library!


What are you thankful for today?

Juggalette Face Paint Ideas

Next Friday (25 October), I am heading to the Juggalo Prom. This will be my first prom – I never went to a high school prom and this will be the first Juggalo Prom held in Philadelphia – and I’m really excited.

I’m waiting for my dress to come in – the first dress got lost in the mail and Hot Topic never received it. I called customer service on Saturday, they put a new order in and it was supposed to come today, but I was never notified and I have to call tomorrow. I’m really hoping I get the dress over the weekend. I also want to buy a pair of boots and I think I have a jean jacket to go over the dress. It’s a plaid skater dress.

I also am going to paint my face. I was thinking of painting my face to resemble Pennywise, but the makeup I bought, it suggested not to put the red near my eyes. While I do have red eye shadow, I’m not sure. This is what I was thinking if I did Pennywise:


Although, this version looks cool:


This is in line to what I found on Pinterest. Yes, I did a google search for “Juggalette Face Paint Ideas” and it took me straight to Pinterest.


I actually really like this one.



I do like Boondox’s paint. One year I was Monoxide and I could always do that again. Here I am in 2013, as Monoxide:


My full-time job is having a Halloween costume contest that day and I was going to apply my paint when I got to work. I think I am going to do the first image I found on Pinterest; it’s simple and straight forward.

Regardless of which design I choose, I can’t wait for the Juggalo Prom and I promise to take a lot of photos!