Remembering Grumpy Cat (4 April 2012 – 14 May 2019)

Every morning I wake up to my Grumpy Cat calendar. This morning was no exception, although I hadn’t changed it in a week. I soon went onto Instagram and saw the heart breaking news.

I’m heartbroken. No, she wasn’t my cat, but I loved her memes just the same. I’ve always wanted to meet her too. 😢 I have a beloved Grumpy Cat shirt that I’ve warn for pretty special occasions.



Grumpy Cat joined me during the Juggalo March in D.C. on 16 September 2017. I went to D.C. for the Brown’s family reunion, had some down time and was able to join the Family for moments of the March, then join the Browns for the moments in their reunion. Yes, I did two things that day and I’m so glad I was able to do both… all with my beloved shirt.

“Vote No On Everything” is very appropriate for Washington, D.C.

Grumpy Cat joined me on a few Asbury Park trips over the past few years.

And since Jamie from Twiztid posted about how saddened he was about Grumpy Cat’s death, here’s a few photos from my 25th birthday – two of my favourites. This was my first Grumpy Cat shirt, the one I bought in 2013, on the eve of my 24th birthday. I wonder if I still have that shirt somewhere.

Grumpy Cat, thank you for the joy and laughs for the past 7 years. Go enjoy a Scotch with Mimi, Olivia, both Woos, and Colonel Meow. 💜

Thankful Thursday 16 May 2019

Wow! Another care package from the UK! Even though the Brits are wrongly stereotyped with the tight upper lip and being made of steel, I’ve found that the Brits are some of the kindest people.

Yesterday when dad picked me up from the library, I asked him (as usual) if I had any mail. He responded, “you have a package waiting for you, it’s from outside the US.” I was curious and when we arrived home, I was happy to see it was a surprise package from Katie. Katie is one of my Instagram friends and like Teddy and Sarah, although I haven’t met her face to face yet, we have become more than just internet friends. I have a few friends like that, and it’s nice. Anyway, she sent me a nice little letter, some ads from Manchester in a baggie that Manchester gives out for free to visitors, and inside the bag was some swag from Sad Ghost Club. She knows how much I love Sad Ghost Club, so she decided to surprise me with some stickers, pins, and a patch. I’m beyond verklempt and I feel so grateful. She is moving in the fall, after she moves, I will send her something bigger than postcards and pictures.

I’m grateful for my local friends too. Christina and Tiarra have been my rock this year – I’m thinking about doing something special (and different) for my third decade of life. Nothing too drastic, but I’ve been chatting with Christina and Tiarra about it and they think I should. They both have said, “life is too short. If you want to do something, do it!” They will be there for me. I’m also grateful for Marsha and Claire.

I’m grateful for dad since he takes me in the morning, three days per week to the train, he’s helping me save money. Well, not only that, but because he wants to and has always loved doing things with me. He enjoys it and I’m daddy’s girl, so I think that’s why he enjoys it. Regardless, I am thankful for dad and for his love.

I saw Jack yesterday! We’re slowly blooming into friends, I think! He’s seeing the Fugees tomorrow night and we were chatting about that. I said, “I would love to see if there are still tickets available, but I’m seeing Machine Gun Kelly on 4 June.” He responded, “I love Kells! I would love to see him.” We chatted about it for a little while before he had to get off of the train. I can’t wait to see where it goes.

What are you thankful for?

Mother’s Day 2019

Happy Mother’s Day to my sweet mom, who makes sure my food is kept gluten and lactose free and helps with scrapbooking and art projects and everything in between.

Last night, I left out a gift from me and a small gift from the Boy. I gave her a miniature rose that she can keep on the porch and an IOU for Kick Axe. She thought that it looked cool and would like to try it. Once she finishes travelling for work, she wants to see the Lantern Festival, so we can do that and go ax throwing after.

We enjoyed dinner at Creed’s Steak and Seafood. We enjoyed our dinner, shared laughs and conversations. Sam, our waiter, was awesome and made sure my meal was kept gluten free. He sat down with me to talk about my allergies and was attentive. He was also attentive to mom and made her feel like the queen she is.

Happy Mother’s Day to all women out there – the pet moms, the moms who adopted, the women who have tried to conceive but lost their pregnancy, women who have decided not to become moms, moms with strained relationships with their offspring, teachers, caregivers, and grandmothers.

Kick Ax | Old City Philadelphia | 10 May 2019


Yesterday as I trekked to the roller rink, I noticed that an ax throwing bar opened. I walked inside to check it out, they gave me a free pass to check it out, it looked fun and I told them after I was done skating, I would come back.


I only skated for an hour and walked back to Kick Ax at 5:30. I didn’t eat, I was going to eat after, and I will admit that when I was told that the earliest reservation was for 6:30, I was hangry. There’s not much GF in Old City. I said I would wait and wait to eat. As I was sitting and waiting, one of the managers saw me and asked me if I was alone. I said I was, and he said, “would you like to join a group? Playing with a group is more fun!” I agreed, he walked me back, and I joined a group of two men: father and son, Derek and Stephen. A few minutes after I joined, Lia and Matt joined, then Leah and her husband.

Before we began the games, Mollie, our instructor, went over the rules, showed us how to handle the ax, and gave us techniques for throwing. I was a little nervous, but I was excited because this is something I’ve wanted to do for a few years now. I wasn’t quite sure what to expect, but regardless I was here to have fun.

Steve and Derek went first and they were pretty good. I later learned that Steve, in his early to mid 20s, is in the Navy and is home visiting. I was called next, along with Leah, and we grabbed the axes from the stump. Before I walked up, I gave Steve my phone for him to take photos.

I went first. I gripped my ax, stepped a little past the line, placed it behind my back, I lifted it and before I slung it, I took a deep breath. Guess what I aimed for? For my first try, I got a bulls eye. Mollie was shocked and my group cheered and I heard Matt call out, “are you sure you have never done this before?” I said no. Unfortunately, my second throw, which Steve taped, was a miss. I did get a hit for the third.


I’m glad that the Kick Ax manager placed me with this group and placed us all together. My teammates were fun and we enjoyed chatting, laughing, and while it was competition, it was friendly competition. We did play for points, but there were no winners or losers, just fun.

As I continued on, I kept aiming and shooting for 4s and bulls eyes. At one point, I was paired with Matt, we tapped axes and wished each other luck, and while I missed one, I shot for two fours. For the next game, it was called “Around the World” and we had to go in number order. I had to shoot for a 2, but shot for bulls eye first. Matt called out, “of course she did! Jessica only shoots for perfection!” I tried to get a 2, but missed, and then hit a four. Eventually, Mollie just said, “whatever you hit is fine.” I eventually did hit a 1 later on, and in the future, higher aim is what I want to practice. I’m short and 4s, bulleyes were natural for me.




One thing I learned from ax night: “One other thing I noticed when I made some mistakes and didn’t hit at all. I noticed when I did that, it was because I was rushing and didn’t take a deep breath. At some points, I was worried that my team members would become annoyed if I took longer, but Derick said to me: “it’s okay, take your time. This is only fun.” He was right. Once I took my time, took a deep breath and took a breath as I threw, I hit. I could say the same about life.

At 7, our session ended and Mollie took a group photo of us. Mollie just posted the photo to social media and it is great. I loved my group and that laughter made my night. I also felt good about my natural abilities. I felt good about myself.


The playlist for the night was some of my favourite music: grunge. I heard some of my favourites:



However, I couldn’t stop thinking about my favourite Dark Lotus song as I threw:

After our group photo, Mollie took a photo of me with my phone. One farther away and one close-up. I posted the close up on Instagram and captioned it with the beginning of the Dark Lotus song, “I would like to invite you on a journey, watch me as I pass the axe.” Andre responded with Blaze’s line next and I would have loved to kept the song going, but I’m trying to keep my Instagram PG-13 as much as possible. I just responded, “then passed it off to Madrox. :laugh: Isn’t it fun?”




I can’t wait to go back next week and I hope I can join another group.

Thankful Thursday 9 May 2019

::clears throat and begins this blog entry as the SNL performer who mocked Sweet Sugar Slam from the 2009 GOTJ Infomercial for SNL’s skit of Under-Underground Presents::  It’s that crazy-ass time of week again, THANKFUL THURSDAY! WHOOP WHOOP!

I decorated my desk at my full-time job. My desk is joyful again and I have a few more things to add, however, I’m grateful for my friends that responded to my picture texts about the layouts of these scrapbook pages. They gave me their opinions and helped make these pages look great.

One of my colleagues is a crafter and loves buying her supplies at the dollar store. I asked her if she was going soon, she was, and I gave her $1 to pick up an 8×10 frame for my Baltimore collage. She surprised me: she gifted me a 12×12 frame as well! She loved how I decorated and thought I could use another frame, on her. I’m speechless and verklempt; I’m thankful for Ms. Lori’s kindness.


I’m also thankful for my library job. Carol was working tonight and I was telling her about Twiztid. She’s a retired woman and loved hearing my stories about meeting the boys. I was telling her about Warped Tour and how when I met them again, they remembered who I was and gave me bear hugs. She said, “Oh, Jessica, that’s awesome! I remember when the person who plays Paul McCartney in RAINN saw me bopping along to the music and gave me a thumbs up. That’s amazing that the guys in Twiztid remembered who you are, especially since they meet thousands of people daily. I love hearing the joy in your voice and although I am not familiar with them, I love hearing your memories.”

I’ve been sharing a lot of Twiztid stories lately. I was telling my other British friend about the Warped Tour incident and she said, “that was so sweet of them. They are sweet, just like you.” Twiztid brings me so much joy. Today I also ordered my first ICP shirt. I’ve been a fan for 16 years, and this is my first time purchasing one of their shirts. Celebration tonight? LOL.

What are you thankful for?

Main Line Symphony Orchestra

On the evening of 3 May 2019, I saw my aunt perform with the Main Line Symphony Orchestra (MLSO). They were amazing and they put on a wonderful show. My uncle and I enjoyed watching my aunt and taking photos with Brent Celik. I’m not an Eagles fan, but he was a pretty good orator for Copland’s Lincoln, which I am posting here.



After, Aunt Peg, Uncle Tom, and I went for ice cream and water ice at Wawa. It was a lovely evening out. I can’t wait to see my aunt perform again.