I caught a cold last week; I took a sick day last Friday and spent last weekend sleeping. I’m feeling much better, although I am still resting. I’m grateful that I feel better and I’m thankful for those who have forgiven me for the things I said when I was sick. It was my first time being sick in two years, I was trying not to get acute bronchitis (like I had 3 times in 2019 and again in January 2020) and my anxiety was amped.
Life ebbs and flows. This week it’s at ebbtide. Tommy is having an Aspie moment, I feel a bit blah still, and his birthday is Monday. I probably won’t see him this weekend either, but his gift is available for when he’s ready and for when I’m ready. I said something mean last week to him when I was sick, I apologized, and he forgave me at the end of the weekend (last weekend). Something happened yesterday that I don’t really want to talk about here and we’re back to being on read. I get it and I need some time to forgive myself for some things. Right now I’m in self-hatred mode and I’m trying to move past that. I’m thankful for my friends who have listened to me cry this week. I’m thankful for some of my County and library co-workers for listening too. Some of them are (library) and some of them are becoming (County) family.
I’m thankful it’s National Poetry Writing Month and I’m grateful for discovering my muse these past few days. I’ll be focusing on NaPoWriMo this month and won’t be blogging as much.
I also have to work on Happiness Box 2021 some more. I haven’t been working on it as much because I’ve been working on albums of me and Tommy. I want most of my money going to those types of albums and I’m trying to keep Happiness Box 2021 on the cheap. Since it’s a massive project, in the past it got expensive. I have other things I’m working and budgeting on now. I’m halfway through March 2021. I’ll place the rest, then April, May, and June 2021. I’m displaying my project at the library in June 2022 and since I’m going to show two pages from each album, I don’t really have to be done 2021’s album. I’m going to display some moments of Tommy and I for 2021. I’ll also be displaying the Box and the original Jar that didn’t hold the whole year in 2016.
I started working on Tommy and Jessica’s First Holidays Together 2021 album and I’m thankful for the friends and co-worker Doug who complimented me on my work so far. They love what I do and think my work looks beautiful. I’m proud of how my Hebrew writing turned out. Labour of love: each page has taken me an hour to do. When I get to ice skating, Christmas, and New Year’s, I know it’ll still be a labour of love. Getting in touch with my creativity also helps me feel better, which I am grateful for.
I’m also thankful for family. What are you thankful for today?