Saturday’s service was so beautiful! It was a bit untraditional since there was a bar mitzvah taking place, but we still met. One of the members who was supposed to lead had computer issues; we decided that we would all read different parts of the service in English and Hebrew. I read! I also read part of the Torah portion, Ki Tissa, but I had to read the opening prayer in Hebrew.
Sometimes it’s so hard for me to ask for help because I don’t want to be viewed as weak or dumb. However, since I’m still a baby in Judaism and I’m still learning, I asked for help. Everyone read along with me in Hebrew to help me! Then I read my part in Ki Tissa in English. I’m so verklempt and grateful for the help! I’m so verklempt that they welcomed me as well.
I think part of my fear is I might not be welcomed. However, I’m finding that is not the case and the congregation is pretty much welcoming to everyone who wants to learn. They don’t care who I am as long as I’m a kind person. I’ve ran into someone who has told me, “you aren’t valid unless you do things the Orthodox way.” Fortunately, he’s the minority that I’ve run into. Most I’ve met on my journey so far have said, “the more the merrier!” and haven’t been pushy either.
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Hi, Jessica Marie!
I too am verklempt after reading your post, dear friend. Thanks for reporting on Saturday’s service. You can feel proud for challenging yourself to read parts of the service in English and in Hebrew. I think the vast majority of people would rather help someone like you who sincerely asks for it and is genuinely interested and eager to learn, than to deal with someone who thinks they already know it all. There are plenty of the latter in this world, and it is refreshing to encounter a humble person with a thirst for knowledge, enlightenment and self improvement. I am confident you will continue to be welcomed and find many people willing and happy to help you.
Enjoy the rest of your week, dear friend JM!