Some Thoughts While Sequestering

Since I’ve been sequestered in the house since mid-March, I’ve been working on Happiness Box scrapbooks and the box. As I’ve been working on the scrapbook and since I’ve been seeing kindness all around me while I walk, I was doing some thinking.

I was having a heart-to-heart with Marsha, Christina, and Claire on Monday night and I basically said, I’m so hard on myself. Living with my parents isn’t shameful, a lot of us are in this boat. I’m not ready to move, although mom may threaten kicking me out, she doesn’t want me to move, and I’m not in a position to do so. I need to take my time and I need to follow my own time line. I’ve always been a slow person and that is okay. I think I’m the one who judges myself the harshest, I doubt others judge me as harshly as I judge myself. Also, I need to stop resenting the hell out of the Philadelphia Area. Resenting it won’t make things go any quicker, in fact, I think resenting the hell out of this city has held me back. They agreed.

Yesterday I also shared with them that I’m going to start saving to go back to school and maybe in Canada. Wherever I go to school, I will be moving. I’m thinking of going for a MFA in writing and teach writing to college students. Teachers and professors wanted me to go on to get my MFA, but that scared mom. Becoming a professor scared mom because it’s not really well paying and job security. Well, it depends, just like in the corporate world. I was thinking about that and while I would like to help people, maybe I’m a better fit of teaching people how to write and who knows, maybe I could also be a mentor to college students. I had to have one when I was an undergrad, we all did. I had other mentors too.

There are no guarantees in life. Life happens to us and it is up to us to meet the challenges. We can get upset, we can curse, we can scream, however, we need to dust ourselves off too and keep moving. All I know is, I am writing my story and I’m taking it as it goes.

 

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Creator of the Happiness Box Project Initiative, a project where you write your happiness or gratitude each day, then open the box in the New Year. The Initiative is to teach joy and gratitude, to pass it on to others.

2 thoughts on “Some Thoughts While Sequestering”

  1. Hi, Jessica Marie!

    I’m happy to know that you had a heart-to-heart talk with three trusted friends – Marsha, Christina, and Claire. With the COVID-19 crisis still evolving, I think it makes sense to stay right where you are. In households all across America, families are being required to adapt, compromise and work together to maintain a stable, peaceful environment. Now’s the time for you to plan for the future, break old unresourceful patterns, establish new habits and save money for continuing education and your move to another city, state or to Canada. It is unclear to me why you resent the Philadelphia area. It is culturally rich and diverse with a million things to see and do. You have encountered mostly kind, friendly folks in your travels into the city and to venues, parks and attractions in satellite communities.

    “It’s not what happens to you, it’s what you do about it, how you respond, the action you take, that makes all the difference.” – NLP principle

    Good night to you, dear friend JM!

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