Can you believe that there is only 40 more days left in 2019!? I’m really excited to open Happiness Box 2019, but I’m not trying to rush the time. I’m thankful for the current time and all of the blessings I’ve been experiencing.
I am thankful for Anna and Kathleen. I will admit that I haven’t written fiction or travel non-fiction in a year. My writing has been focused on everything Happiness Box from daily slips to blogs to newsletters. I was in panic mode earlier this week because I really want to get out of my current full-time job and into writing. I need a portfolio and I haven’t freelanced in three years. Sure, I can put that into a portfolio as well as the writing I did in college, but I’m worried that it’s too old. I was panicking about the timelines of everything; not only that, I panic because I don’t post to Writing.com anymore. It was all about not posting to Writing.com as much as I did when I joined at 16 and throughout my early 20s (really, up until the rape) and at times I feel bad about it.
Anna and I had a heart-to-heart; she’s an artist and she told me that there are times where she doesn’t have a creative bone in her body. Like me, she works, but she’s also going to school full-time… that makes sense. She’s just as tired as I can be. However, as Kathleen made me realize, I still do write and does the writing I do make me happy? If not, I should reevaluate. I’ve calmed down and I think I will put my Happiness Box Project work into a portfolio to show employers, but I also read a blog about writer’s block. I don’t have it since I am writing, it’s just not on a medium. Honestly, up until therapy and up until I got debt under control, I was a curmudgeon on Writing.com. A lot of it was stemming from my trauma as well and well, I lost a lot of friends on that site. When I do post to Writing.com, no one really acknowledges it anymore and no one writes me either. I shouldn’t feel bad about Writing.com because honestly, I outgrew that community. The writing I do is important and it is helping others; the writing I do for the Happiness Box Project also brings me joy.
I’m also thankful for dad and for our joyful mornings as he takes me to the train for work. Our Starbucks runs are fun and listening to music too. He has picked me up in the evenings since it gets dark earlier and I’m grateful. I’m thankful for mom too; she ordered a GF fruit tart for Thanksgiving and bought GF gravy for my turkey.
My tattoo turned two weeks today! It stopped itching and it has healed, at least on the top layer of skin. I’ve read that it will take a month before I can swim and soak, but the full healing takes six months. Wraith turns six months on Tuesday. Can you believe it? I’m thankful for the wonderful inking experiences and I’m grateful that my lower back is complete. My ink and piercings make me happy.
What are you thankful for?