I’m thankful for my friends today. So-and-So blocked me on Instagram and at first I was sad, but after reaching out to some friends and chatting for a bit, why should I be? This is a blessing and honestly, this should have ended a few weeks ago. I showed some weakness, but because of my strength, I paid attention and listened. My inner voice was screaming at me and it protected me.
I was going to girl up, but frankly, So-and-So scares me and I don’t really want anything to do with them. I blocked them on Instagram and I blocked the number again. I’ll just avoid and count my lucky stars.
I’m not interested in romantic relationships; I think my problem is I get flattered when someone shows that they like me. I was bullied in school and six years ago was the ultimate form of control and bullying. While being flattered isn’t necessarily bad, I tend to attract sketchy characters. I’m also a kind person and don’t reject people flat out. Even as a child, I struggled with that… I wanted to be a friend to everyone.
I’m proud of myself, especially as the six year anniversary approaches in three weeks. I’m not the same person I was at 24 and nowadays I listen to what my inner voice is saying. This is truly a blessing in disguise.
I’m so thankful for my friends and their patience.
2 thoughts on “Thankful Sunday 13 October 2019”
Hi, Jessica Marie!
I am not the same person I was six years ago either. Each one of us is a work in progress. Embrace the changes and learn from past mistakes. I’m happy to know you are listening to your inner voice when it tells you someone is bad news. Being a friend to everyone is a noble concept, but it doesn’t work in reality because some people only want to use and exploit you. Learning to tell the difference and knowing when to withdraw are skills you are acquiring. You are growing and I admire you for it.
I wish you a safe and happy week ahead, dear friend JM!
Thank you, Tom. When I was younger, it was easier. As an adult, not everyone is as nice as they were as a child.
My first impressions were right. Probably wanted to use me, then smash and run. No thanks. Blessing in disguise.