I’m thankful for my friends today. So-and-So blocked me on Instagram and at first I was sad, but after reaching out to some friends and chatting for a bit, why should I be? This is a blessing and honestly, this should have ended a few weeks ago. I showed some weakness, but because of my strength, I paid attention and listened. My inner voice was screaming at me and it protected me.
I was going to girl up, but frankly, So-and-So scares me and I don’t really want anything to do with them. I blocked them on Instagram and I blocked the number again. I’ll just avoid and count my lucky stars.
I’m not interested in romantic relationships; I think my problem is I get flattered when someone shows that they like me. I was bullied in school and six years ago was the ultimate form of control and bullying. While being flattered isn’t necessarily bad, I tend to attract sketchy characters. I’m also a kind person and don’t reject people flat out. Even as a child, I struggled with that… I wanted to be a friend to everyone.
I’m proud of myself, especially as the six year anniversary approaches in three weeks. I’m not the same person I was at 24 and nowadays I listen to what my inner voice is saying. This is truly a blessing in disguise.
I’m so thankful for my friends and their patience.